I know that I am a few days late, and the new year has already greeted us, but that doesn't mean that I can't still write about it :) To me, new years eve is just another night, so as boring and unexciting as it is, I stayed home and didn't make a big fuss. As a matter of fact, I watched Barbie's Island Princess with my seven year old sister because neither one of us could sleep in lue of all of the festive fireworks going off in our neighborhood. I spent those hours between decades with someone I love with all of my heart, and don't think I could have had a better time if I were anywhere else in the world.
The one thing that I do enjoy about New Years however, is the chance to reflect on how life has surprised you in the last 365 days and start your sentences with "if someone would have told me" and end them with "I never would have believed them." I have not only looked back on this year, I have read my thoughts on this throughout this year, and I just love every word. If I knew then what I know now, I would have hugged myself and said baby just you wait.
This year has been full of moments for me. And a lot of those moments were full of decisions. I really do believe that this is my first grown up year. I say that because I have not apologized for life, instead I have lived it for everyone to watch if they so choose, and I have never been happier. Me and my God are driving this life of an eccentric, life loving and risk taking Miss Whittamore, and I only hope that I can keep this pattern up.
I know that people usually make New Years resolutions during this time, and with the best of intentions, but I also know that they fall to the wayside when life happens. I can't say that I don't have goals for this year, because I most certainly do, but I am not going to be so narrow minded as to map them out. If I do, I am limiting myself to only my idea of this life, instead of being open to letting others have a hand in my progress. Would I like to shed a few pounds? Of course! who doesn't?! But I am also not going to set a deadline for that because I don't want to kill myself if I don't make it. The goal is instead to live a healthy lifestyle, and if a consequence of that is losing a few pounds then of course that is welcome. Do I want to keep climbing this ladder that I have found myself on? Why yes I do, but I am not going to kill myself if I don't make it up 5 more rungs by 2012. I am going to be the best me I can be, make my own opportunities, and allow people to help me, instead of thinking I can do all of this alone. There is no shame in being helped, instead there are volumes of wisdom in allowing someone of more experience to guide you.
Once again, I find myself at a crossroad, but I have decided there are very few times when life doesn't leave you without options. Many of the things I have shared my hopes for have indeed come true. So far in the new year I have Beehive down in Naples to look forward to, several contracted vocal gigs, some prospects with the theatre comapnies I hav put my foot in the door of this year, the opportunity to be a voice mentor in training with the goal of teaching a wonderful voice curriculum, a few recording opportunities, as well as the opportunity to advance in my day job at the staffing agency. I am blessed beyond measure that on day 2 of the new year I already have so much to look forward to, but I am also excited that the way I see things happening right now is certainly not the way they will look months down the line. Life is more manageable when looked at as a scavenger hunt as opposed to a surprise party, and I can't wait to find some more clues that lead me to the prize.
Nothing about me is original, I am a compilation of everyone I have ever met. I look forward and challenge those in my future, to keep me on my toes.
Happy New Year to you all. How do you measure a year in the life? How about love.
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